Whenever say my words, wishing they would be heard.
... seems to be something about communication problem. could be at home, the generation gap between the parents n children., could be at your workplace, where u always need to think thrice before you speak up, could be with your friends which a lot of misunderstanding could happened for whatever reasons.

.......... to be continued.... :)

So crowded. Changi village is attracting a lot of crowds nowadays. Families, couples, pple who go chalet. I go there quite often during weekends for dinner. Well, tonight there a lots of cars parking on the sides of the road. Almost every eating places are full house. But still early... cannot see any "ah-gua" hahhahaa.......

Yawn....... a sunny saturday again. Very tired.
I donno wat I wanna write now.... mind is stucked.......

I'm not happy today. Suddenly..... not happy, very empty now.

Are you there?
Pop, oldies, funky, cartoon, self-made...... Everyone have their own personalized ringtone in their handphone.... wanna be different, be cool or just download or create for fun. The telephones in my office got different kinds of pre-loaded ringtones (high-class cool Cisco IP phones). One of the tones is a lady's voice saying "are u there?".
Busy busy busy.... We are all busy bees. Sometimes no matter how busy are you how tired are you, you would still wanna contact your friends, sms.. junky e-mail.. anything and everything. Or maybe just because you are bored or ate shit in your life and wanna vomit on other people to release your stress (as someone said about that... hahaha...) But sometimes... is like you really miss someone for a long time and really wanna how's life going on as you still care about the person.
If you think you still have the drive to keep in touch with someone, congrads, you got friends. If otherwise, oh are you sure? Either you are anti-social or you got attitude problem.

Four Problems
Last time, I told me frens that I had so-called 4 big problem facing at that moment. Problem F is something that is small but happen frequently from time to time, for no reason, really donno why. Problem W is something that is partly under control, but suject to the changes of a lot of factors in our environment, cannot be totally controlled by individual. Then, Problem S, well, totally relating to personal ability, no one really can help on this... whether you can do it or you fail. Lastly, Problem R, can be controllable or can be unpredictable, maybe can avoid if never started on the issue.

Well, Fren A told me that: Problem F is happening on everyone, Problem W is a 50/50 chance of getting sucess, Problem S ... need to believe in yourself, your ability etc..., Problem R, quickly quit the game and don drag anymore until it get even worser, it better to leave the table before losing more and more.

Ok another fren, called Fren B told me that: I also have Problem F, think it's something normal... everyone gotta face it. Whereas Problem W and S, you can take your own control, just that you need to plan your time well, basically you know better yourself. As for Problem R,.... got most of the comments... similar verdict as Fren A is to quit fast and don't try to step into another problem if you are facing a lost of problems already.

Fren C a long lost fren, mostly interested in my Problem R told me don't drag anymore and make yourself unhappy.

Then, Fren D, disccussed with me a lot for Problem W, and said there should not be any problem for you to make it with high chance. As for Problem R, because Fren D is also invovled in this issue as well, not sure if the comment is fair enough, anyway, the assurance is "ok no problem", a kind of don't-worry-be-happy ... optimistic tone and should be able to overcome together.

Now, Problem F, it's still a minor issue to me hanging there, not really dead, but really depends. Problem W, already got a good start... hopefully the road is not too rigid, but definately full of challeanges. Problem S, a kind of suprise that can get throught the 1st barrier, now continue to crack the next barrier. As for Problem R, still cloudy. Helpless, no news, no updates, no feedback and no hope.

For F,W, and S are kinda under control. Maybe I really need to avoid Problem R and leave it without turning my head back for.... 1 mth, half a year, one year, 3 yrs, 5.... 10.... 20..... or forever. Nobody knows.

Time never waits for anybody. Mid of feb already.... well, lots of thing happened in the 1st one and half month of 2004. everything keeps changing like riding on a roller-coaster, with lots of surprise (Something good, but something really made me suffered a lot)...... exicting, thrilling yet make me sick and headache. It's time to re-organize and planning ahead for the future. The road is narrow and long..............

Heard from my korean and japanese frens that valentines's day is for girls to give guys chocolate... and one month later in march14 the guys will present the girl who gave them chocolate. wat are the conclusions..... well, good gimmick for businessmen to make good business on these days. and guys need gals to push and kick in order to move hhohoho.........

oh my korean fren will be going back to her home country... wishing all the best to her.

germ is living anywhere n everywhere.... could be inside our body too!!! yucks. Made me remember something like itchy asshole for all little kids who must go through in their lives ahahahaha.....! suddenly have this kind of funny thought bcoz my fren told me something abt germ..... hmmm. anyway, that just for fun............................. hahahahaaaaaaaaa..................

in resonpse to my fren's "conversation"..... if everyone has those kind of theory of life or whatsoever... then, i what i can think of is.... if u regret of did something (of coz must be ethical and legal), it's still better then you never do it and regret.

hmm take it simple can be ... enjoy the food that you like first before thinking abt your weight and miss the good food.

hey anyone who are concerning toooooo much abt their weight??

NOT me definately..... *giggling*

An interesting article for your reading. It's talking about how the guys treat us as 'girl friend' which may lead the girls to think otherwise. You may want to pass it around especially the guys.

JUST FRIENDS ? By Susan Nikaido

If my sources are correct, the following scenario is played out frequently among the world of singles. It happens on both sides of the gender line, but allow me to talk about it from my own female respective.

A man meets a woman and begins to show interest in her. He asks her to spend time with him on a regular basis : hiking, biking, watching video. He
calls her at least once a week just to talk. He begins telling her about the deeper things in his heart and invites her to share at this level as well. He great deal to him. He may become a little affectionate: the hugs begin to linger.

The relationship has been defined as friendship, if it has been defined at all. But after all this special attention, the woman is definitely feeling more. So she asks the guy what's going on. To her surprise, he does a quick about-face. He insists they are just friends. After that, he avoids her, leaving her hurt and bewildered. She feels rejected - she has lost not only a romantic interest (she thought) but worse, a close and trusted friend. And she feels stupid. Did she really misread all those signals?

After I experienced this as a single woman, I asked a friend my friend "Joel" to help me understand why guys do this. After I told him my woeful tale, he said, "I did that to somebody once."

What? Why would you ever do such a thing?" I asked. "We were getting too "We were getting too close, and it scared me," he said. This helped me understand why the "just friends" syndrome is so widespread.

A guy wants to get to know a girl, but without the pressure of dating. So he spends a lot of time with her, treating her in many ways like a girlfriend but defining the relationship as friends. This way, if it begins to look like there's no future in the relationship,or he's not ready to "get serious," he can back away with no messy breakup. It sounds like a nice arrangement for the guy. But that approach can be a problem for the woman. If a man tells a woman he just wants to "be friends" but he treats her as if it's more than friendship, she will believe his behavior instead of his words. It sets her up for a big disappointment. Or if he invokes the "just friends" mantra after being asked about the nature of the relationship, but then promptly begins to distance himself from the friendship, again, his actions do not match his words. He may think he's sparing her feelings by avoiding a breakup. But by defining the relationship as a friendship, he hurts her even more deeply when he disappears. A dating relationship comes with certain risks. But she expects a friendship -especially such a close one - to continue.

Think about it this way: A broken dating relationship says only, "I don't want to marry you"; a broken friendship says to her, "I don't want/value you on any level."

Taking a woman down this path violates two principles. First, it's dishonest. Someone once said that it was the way of the World -not of a godly man - to say "yes, yes" and "no, no" in the same breath. A man of integrity will call a relationship what it is. Second, it is not kind or loving. The "just friends" approach may be safer for the guy, but it is harmful to the woman.

In effect, he is asking her for the rewards of a dating relationship -companionship, emotional intimacy, even affection - without the responsibility. He is playing with her heart, and her heart will probably get broken. But what if a guy does only want to be friends -or wants to develop a friendship before he decides to date? It's pretty simple. He just treats the woman like all his other friends. He doesn't spend more time with her or call her more often than he does his other friends. He usually invites other people along when he get together with her. He doesn't pick up the tab when just the two of them go out. He avoids compliments that might communicate she is "special" to him. He lets her know he spends time with other women. He's extremely careful about showing any physical affection - even playful shoves or hugs. If, after getting to know her from a safe emotional distance, he wants a deeper relationship, he tells her that he wants to date her. What if you are not thinking about is more than friendship, but she asks about your intentions? Tell her you appreciate her friendship, but be honest about where you are.
Above all, though it may be awkward for a while, continue to be her friend.

Years ago, I began to be attracted to a male friend. Though I hadn't really been getting any signals that he was interested in me, I knew it would help settle my emotions to hear it from him. I asked. He affirmed me as a person but told me gently - but clearly - that he thought of me only as a friend and then he did a wonderful thing. He kept being my friend. Though it hurt a little to learn I wasn't attractive to him in that way, it helped to know he still valued me and wanted me around. This was nearly 15 years ago, and though we have
both moved to different states and married, we are friends to this day.

Women can be great friends. But guys, unless you are ready for a dating relationship, please be careful to treat us "as sisters, with absolute purity", not as girlfriends, nor as something in between.

Your honesty - with yourself and with us - will prevent hurtful confusion.

Sneeze...
One for sorrow
Two for joy
Three for a letter
Four for a boy.
Five for silver
Six for gold
Seven for a secret, never to be told.

True Lies.... Liar Liar....
Are they good in acting? Why people can tell lies like a truth?

Some blinking their eyes,
some open theirs wide.
No matter what and why,
they are still telling lies.
Wishing one day...
all these actors will go to hell and die!

Choice or Chance?

When we meet the right person to love when we're at the right place, at the right time. That's chance. When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together bec. of this) is not a choice, that's also chance.

The difference is, what happens afterward? When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and then contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love the person, even with his faults, that's not chance. That's choice. When you choose to be with a person no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that last is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this--"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen." I do believe that soulmates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soulmates by chance, but loving and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make.

Mind your language used!
Will you say any vulgar to your family, frens, lover or someone you know when you ger fed up??
Here are some of the ugliest vulgars that ever heard from someone you know......
1)get the f*ck our of my life and you bitch
2)you can go and f*ck yourself lah... haha

not here to emphazie those words... but hope everyone can mind your language when you speak...! It doesn't look cool!!.... it reflects how well your manner and how educated you are.

continue......
there are lots of ppple bearing such negetive traits in this world. can be at work, can be your family members, your frens, your lover....etc. sometimes you may feel fed up.... well, i'd rather stay calm...... to me this is the way to differentiate who is good and who is not so good..........

Have you ever deal with people who are stubborn and always thinks that they are smarter and better then everybody and what they said are always right? ..... ~~~~~~~to be continued.....

This was found in one of my e-mails.... read slowly....

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing
you hadn't?
or- Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Have u ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own.... when you least suspect it, or even when you
don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that
other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of
rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have
done, or could have had.

Working in Public Holiday
Do you like working in public holidays???
Though I'm not working for shift duties, sometimes I also need to work on public holidays due to some requirements in the operation of my department. Actually I'm quite ok with such arrangement. Why?? No traffic jam during rush hour, that means can wake up later. There must be compensation for working during public holiday either a leave on a normal working day or payment in lieu, so when everyone is working again.... you can rest and do your own things e.g. going to bank, shopping with no queues no crowds which gives your more flexibility!!
What's your say?

Only love stranger
Today is Sunday (the date/time above is not for my time zone). I woke up almost at 1pm... yeah coz I slept very late last nite. While i was struggling to widen my eyes, someone really gave me a shock and made my eyes pop up and drop!! Perhaps is just a little misunderstanding. I'm being wrongly accused by someone by doing something that I didn't do it at all.

Suddenly a lot of words floating in my mind: Truth, Justice, Stranger, Miscommunication, Lies, Betrayal, Sin, Courage, Respect, Care, Trust etc. etc............ all throw to me and really pushing me hard to force my to find out what they really mean.

Anyway, I will still keep simling, keep shining..... until one day I'm not allowed to do so anymore. Nobody knows when it will come, including me. Just want everyone to be happy and healthy. I believe i cannot please everyone, because if I'm trying to please everyone, in the end, I will please NO ONE. That is life.

I only love stranger.... singing Faye Wong's song now..............................................................

life is a moment in space, when a dream is gone, it's a lonelier place. i kissed the morning goodbye, but down inside you know we never know why....

hey the UV rate is high!!...... today is a sunny day after so many days of non-stop raining. yeah feel great! how abt u? and u? and u and u and u???? everything looks great today... i donno why... does anybody know??

why do i love you, so much i love you??