Yo man this week was happening again.... 1st i passed my nihongo test.... yeah very good very good. next wow wow..... I finally kill 4 birds in 1 shot and finished my acca. then yesterday i sucessfully got a promotion... actual day to be confirmed.

WOW suddenly so many good things come togther...... am i being greedy if i want another good thing to come??

Anyway I'm no longer having a perfect body, well, I mean there is defect of the valve in my heart (discovered when I did the heart scan aka echo). Won't die because of it, but need to take care of course. well, still lucky i'm still here to type this blog kekekekeeeeeeee!!!! especially in my office :P

MINI

one week passed again.... whatever... nobody cares!

I donno why i like MINI so much, yeah referring to mini cooper, event though I donno how to drive (still have yet to learn theory hohohohooooooo!!!!). Well, my pc's wallpaper and screensaver are both mini, wow! Just now visited the website.... they offer merchandise like clothes and accessories.... damn cool man!

Just wondering how it is if driving a mini..................................... much be reaaaal cooooool!!!!!! HAHAHA....... the nite is for dreaming :P

I lose weight..... sigh! How to gain more weight? Eat? Exercise? i was told not to overdo exercise today after my heart scan, won't die one..... but very funny to see your heart pumping and hear your own heartbeat loudly.

Sometimes I just wonder what makes people meet and what makes them become apart?
Fate? Chance? Choice?

I donno why I keep crying at late night these days... maybe I'd given myself too much pressure?? No idea.... but can't control. Sigh..........

August 2005 should be with the highest frequency of blogging. To a certain extent, it shows how much time i'm free to be sitting in front of the lousy PC to type. After going through all those ups and downs, now i'm in the trench of pacific ocene, may be still not deep enough, i'm not afraid of death. Actually, I realized about this about 12 years ago.

Last nite i was msn with my friend who was still working in the office at nite. I donno how much she could catch me. Talking about my feelings at the moment, nothing is bingo including my potential health problem (wait and see what's going to be happened on Mon), my emotional life, my career and development. Quite sad, but I'm not complaining anything, but as mentioned in the previous post, I couldn't get the appropriate approach for changing. This make me really really frustrated.

Now I'm trapping in the jungle, I know the destination i wanna go but i donno the way to go. I need SOS. All I have now are 2Fs- family and friends. However, nobody can depend on their family for the whole life, and for friend, they also have their own concerns and things to busy with. Therefore, we all must learn to be independent, mentally and practically.

Two weeks of August had already passed. Today I made a booking with SATA for echo (heart scan), walked pass Orchard road to take my nihongo test again, well, failed again and going to try again next week same time, same place. Checked out some books at Borders but no $ to buy even though 4 for 3 or 3 for 2 (they are clearing stock now). Tried those sandals at Birkenstock but again just try without buying even though i really love it. In the end, i bought two packet of sushi at Isetan supermarket to eat. Yeah I know i shouldn't eat due to my weak stomach and intestine, (the pass few days from Tue onwards, everyday i went to toilet 2-4 times for big business!!!). But I really wanna enjoy before I'm not allowed to do that anymore......

Time flies. 14 days already.

Dead water

Change is a must but not sure if a drastic change or a gradual approach should be used. i feel dissatisfied with the current situation in every aspect of life. it seems that everything is just like dead water, no life, no progress.

Superstar...

hahaha I'm watching that show, seeing people singing and suddenly think of a few songs.. from Miriam Yeung hehehehe.... damn old.

楊千嬅 作曲：Eric Kwok 填詞：林夕 編曲：Eric Kwok
講o的o野俾你聽o丫… 誰人曾愛過你 你盡量幻想他貪你什麼 好心地也不錯 誰人曾厭棄你 你問問自己他憎你什麼 或~是怕你會肚餓 如果想照耀萬人 請加點信心 如果想抱住情人 請吸取教訓 如果想快樂做人 請敲敲你心 如果可磊落做人 你會更吸引 童年時那個你 與弟弟在家中演你自己 哭只因你歡喜 成年人勸過你 你現在大個需要做大戲 但別要太過顧忌 如果想照耀萬人 請加點信心 如果想抱住情人 請吸取教訓 如果想快樂做人 請敲敲你心 如果可磊落做人 你會更吸引 你有個個也有 你有爸爸媽媽 你有占過掛 你有幾口一家 你亦有收過花得過初吻放過煙花 你的八字看透了嗎 你有苦戀的他 你有膽卻怕 你有許多牽掛 你未有卻恨有 有時笑對你說過來吧 如果想照耀萬人 請加點信心 如果想抱住情人 請吸取教訓 如果想快樂做人 請敲敲你心 如果可磊落做人 你會更吸引 童年時那個你 與弟弟在家中演你自己 哭只因你歡喜 成年人勸過你 你現在大個需要做大戲 但是我永遠愛你

姊妹 作曲：C.Y.Kong 作詞：林夕
聽過你太多心事 但已經不再重要 眼見你快做新娘 做蜜友的真想撒嬌我與你太好姊妹 為你竟哭了又笑 時裝都棄掉 穿一世婚紗算了*唯求好姊妹 抱我一抱唯有我聽過你對我哭訴後又離又合 苦心得好報有聽你勸告 不要計數他錯了要故意扮成糊塗終於你守得到怎麼我和我的他 忍不到#每當我愛到跌入漩渦 將錯就錯 關係亦出錯我總太愛人 逼到愛人 變做朋友再變生疏@若我說我願意誰在乎過 你知道那答案快提示我分半點福氣給我 不准留低我一個我信我有這一日 伴侶肯專注待我每晚也固定安樂 像俗語講開花結果卻怕我愛得轟烈 沒信心可以渡過情感可錯贈 婚紗照不敢拍錯Repeat *#@若我說我願意誰在乎過 你知道那答案快提示我總有天親耳聽到 我愛侶對天宣佈生與死都愛惜我 我要講Repeat @總有天找到一個 真的值得我

野孩子 作曲：雷頌德 作詞：黃偉文
就算只談一場感情 除外都是一時虛榮不等於 在蜜月套房 遊玩過 就可自入自出仙境情願獲得你的尊敬 承受太高傲的罪名擠得進你臂彎 如情懷漸冷 未算孤苦也伶仃*明知愛 這種男孩子 也許只能如此但我會成為你最牽掛的一個女子朝朝暮暮讓你猜想如何馴服我若果親手抱住 或者不必如此許多旁人說我不太明瞭男孩子不受命令就是一種最壞名字笑我這個毫無辦法管束的野孩子連沒有幸福都不介意若我依然堅持忠誠 難道你又適合安定真可惜 說要吻我的還未吻 自己就夢中甦醒離場是否有點失敬 還是更轟烈的劇情必需有這結果 才能懷念我 讓我於荒野馳騁Repeat *明知愛 這種男孩子 也許只能如此但我會成為你最牽掛的一個女子朝朝暮暮讓你猜想如何馴服我若果親手抱住 或者不必如此許多旁人說我不太明瞭男孩子不受命令就是一種最壞名字笑我這個毫無辦法管束的野孩子連沒有幸福都不介意

But i like one of the line, super funny!!!...... 獨白：「呢個故事教訓我地，病緊既時候，粥唔止係一碗粥，但係係好番既時候， 粥只係一碗粥，可以食可以唔食，當然，粥並唔可以亂食。唔好似為，食粥唔會上 癮呀。」

We all have thoughts for excitement in the first time but after that we need to think practically. that's why "Love at First Sight" only happened for the first time, the more you (or the other person) see the more you (or the other person) may get irritated.

Last time i learned how to distinguish between good people and jerk, this time i learned what i'm lacking of and what i need to improve.

Afterall.... I don't think I'm stupid! blah!

Still cloudy.....
The sun is very bright today but inside our heart ... still cloudy.
What can I do?

companionship is the thing i'm really looking for.

I just wanna have a simple life.

Yeah nobody would have the patiency to wait and explore especially if there is something fundamentally different. A gap is a gap, if nobody bother to fill it up, it'll never fill up and will just widen.

Yesterday was freshly oven-baked bread, today is just like stone, tomorrow will be trashed.

Thing doesn't go the way as what it supposed to be. I really feel very sad. Most of the reason is on myself. Yes I understand that my weakest link is i am not be able to speak out what my mind is thinking.... i'm trying hard to learn how to do it properly and master it, but it needs time. I'm not genius and i admit to a certain extend, dumb!!, but what's more important is i do put in effort and try to improve myself.


I always believe that no matter good or bad things happened in the past would always teach us how to live our best for today. I still hope for the best!

Really not sure what was happening this week, my head is seperated from my body. On and off battling with flu bugss, having load of extra works, test (still cannot remember all the gammar rules, tenses, particles, etc. of nihongo) , and also, have someone suddenly entered into my life.

I just hope that everything will go fine and everybody is happy.