Still have 2 more months to x'mas

Wow today is Oct 24 already! Not sure how would it be in the next 2 months... not sure whether i need to prepare any x'mas gifts to anybody. But i think at least need to prepare for gift exchange.... hohoho... For myself, i have a long long wishlist on hold..... from head to toe, inside and outside, physical or intellectual. Sometimes i also donno what to go for first!!!

Dead or Alive?

sometimes donno why people can change every day... every possible way. maybe i should learn not to treat people too nice. really disappointed...

Icefire

I didn't sleep well these days... stay up very late, nap in the car in the morning. hmmm very tired, maybe annoyed too. Always nag by people...... yucks!

悪い！！　悪い！！

お元気ですか...........

Tired again... work long hours, sleep a little.
Feel hungry too....

~~~Clearing mailbox~~~

It's a time-consuming process to clear mailbox. After the tedious process, there are 1288 mails sitting in my mailbox now which occupies 18% of the total capacity.

During the process, I have read some e-mails which are unread for a long time, opened some funny files that I think I'd seen before or maybe never see, re-read some e-mails again and again. A lot of interesting thing are discovered again, of course, sad things are revealed again. The oldest one have right now was received in 2002 oct.... around the same time. There are e-mails from Friends, old and new, subscriptions (chinken soup, horoscope, etc... etc...) or simply spam and junkies. All these e-mail represent a part of my feelings in the past 3 years and perhaps play a part tof shaping who am i today.

Interesting finding.....

暑い　寒い　話してください

Weeeeeellll, 2 days already. Feel like banging my head against the wall... Not because of work pressure or whatever, just feeling. What can I do?????

私は日本語がへだです。

海带。。海带。。TV is showing such stupid game.................. hohohoho...

I never write blog in this kind of wee hour for quite some time. Suddenly wanna bs a bit...

Sometimes we can't really plan and work out as what had planned in our life. For example, you queue very early to hope to be the 1st to buy a limited edition stuff, but there had already thousands in front of u when u arrived. Another example, u wanna give a person a call to talk to (for watever reason), u call but nobody answer. One more example, u planned to go for a trip but last minute, it needs to be cancelled due to any kind of resons.... sickness, accident, terrorist attack, earthquake, blah blah....

ok enough bs, qn is not whether we need to plan or not, yeah insurance agent would always tell u the answer. actually is more on how we can adpat and be flexible.... correct?? then how abt on relationship issue? i really have no clue.... maybe that's the reason way i'm still bumming around. lol!

*******!!HAPPY SPA RETREAT!!*******

YOYOYO!! so happy today. Head down to a wonderful spa retreat for a healing massage and body scrub.... especially in a sunny weekday (yeah hahahaha I'm on leave today) no hassle. I can see that I'm glowing.... very very happy.

I cry again... over the same thing. The feeling is like somebody offer you a seat when u in recovery and still having a backache, but then suddenly pull the chair away and you fall down on the floor and hurt your tail bone badly.... maybe hurt the old wound again... or more serious need to hospitalize for a month or even worst.... paralyzed forever.

Sometimes i wonder life would be happy if we don't have to choose.

I'm getting tired already, very very tired......................... ........................ ...........................

Yesterday I attended my 1st pilates class. Wow exciting! Cycling in the afternoon is even more exciting.

Last night I shared some of the ideas with my friend.... well, may be if i know what was the "1st intention" then i won't need to puzzle about what is happening afterwards and save a lot of thinking hours. May be I know or I don't know it at all or just don't want to accept if it was really in that way. Life is difficult, dealing with people is difficult..... a life long learning.